yes its true. I have not lost a single pound in 6 weeks. i weight the same as I did at the beginning of March. I have an appointment with Dr. Wharton in two weeks and I am freaking out. I know he will be fine but I just don’t know what I am doing wrong. I am not over eating. i am not binging. I know at Easter I went up to 288 (!) and know I am back to 282 but I really thoguth I would be in the 270’s by now. My only hope is i can where shorts to my next visit and that will seem like I lost weight.

I don;t think I have lost focus. I hate to keep whining about it but I have felt like a lump since taking the Synthroid and just CANNOT move. This is the only thing I can think of. I will have to force myself to have some sort of activity.

I am starting to feel a bit of anxiety creep in.

I started taking Synthroid about a month ago. I had some symptoms of hypothyroidism but none that couldn’t be explained by just being a busy parent, etc.
I swear i feel a hundred times worse since taking medication that is supposed to make me feel better. My numbers wer not high in my blood test results int he 9/10 range for TSH ( norm is .5-5.5) . Since taking Synthroid I wake up with a headache and between4-6pm I feel like a truck hit me. LCotton headed and connot move. I thought I would have more energy but I have MUCH less.

For a while I had awful mood swings but those are gone- thank-god. I wonder if I am getting enough medication/ Why would I feel WORSE???
At any rate I am miserable.

• lost some weight so feel better.. sort of.. #
• rooting for kelli on The Biggest Loser #
• deleting the 100 spam messages from trainer on Biggest Loser, "Jillian" #

• back on track foodwode- still no weight loss #
• kelli on Biggest Loser Should win #

I wrote about the delicious meringue cookies I was buying at Costco a couple of months ago- Costco stopped carrying them so I have been on a hunt to duplicate them. I came up with my own recipe and they are as good if not better. These are oneof the best meringue cookies I have ever tried- whole family raved about them. They work out to be about 30 calories a cookie.
The fat comes from nuts so feel free to omit. The are light and crisp on the outside and chewy on the inside. Perfect!

Best Almond Meringue Cookie Recipes

Makes 24 nice sized cookies approx 30 calories each.

Preheat oven to 275F.
4 egg whites
pinch of salt
1/4 teaspoon cream of tartar
1 packet vanilla powder or vanilla bean
1 1/3 cup of white sugar
1/4 finely chopped/crushed almonds ( can also use any nut / pistachios)

Beat egg whites. salt and cream of tartar to soft peak than add vanilla powder/bean and gradually add sugar until stiff peak. Fold in nuts.

Drop onto parchment lined cookie sheets.
Bake for 35 mins.
Store in air tight container.

• Wondering why I have not lost weight this week. Could be Synthroid? #
• protein/berryb smoothie for breakfast #
• having lucnh of sliced chicken sndwhich and milk. #
• discovered Jillian from Bigest loser has website http://www.jillianmichaels.com/publicsite/funnel/v2/results.aspx #

Stated medication for sub-clinical hypothyroidism last week and taking .75 mcg of Synthroid. I am nutcase. Had insane crying jag this week. Also am cold- worse then before.

I have done some reading and people seem to recommend Armour ( natural ) thyroid medication- but hard to tell if reviews are by real people or drug reps. Not sure why I am squeamish about taking dessicated pig glands. Will talk to Dr. Wharton about next time I see him- he was a pharmacist before he became a doctor so maybe that makes him more knowledgeable than most about the chemistry.
Saw some alarming side effect s with the Synthroid and wish I had never read because of course now I have every single one :-)
I do notice increased hunger and my hand and feet do seem colder- however it IS cold out .

If some one know about it- please let me know.
I have been taking about 10 days now. Not sure if I feel better or not. I seem to be able to focus more easily than before and have more energy.

**** Spoiler Below*****

I can’t believe I am posting about this. I have never watched this show til now. I find it oddly inspiring. I know they weight loss is totally unrealistic and I get so mad when contestants beat themselves up when they “only” lose 5 lbs. Drives me nuts. As the show goes on I like it a LITTLE better and get attached to the people on the show and happy that they are finally losing weight. I hope they get help with maintenance!!!

I have to constantly changing who I am routing for as they keep getting booted off. I have always liked Dan an Brittany and Kelli grew on me- she is becoming less of a “victim: I LOATHE the two brothers Mark and Jay. Big blubberfest with those two. Mark is the worst and Jay is a bit of a dumb lug.
I just about cried when he was freaking out about what his kids were eating- major control issues there!
For the life of me cannot see WHY no one votes those two off! How can they be so dumb? Does Roger think that Mark will stick by him as numbers get low??? Or maybe he thinks he will always stay above the yellow line.

Getting rid of Dan made no sense to me, Get rid of Mark!!!! Toss out that team.

I am down to hoping Kelli wins. Alli is looking good but she rubs me the wrong way.
Used to have a quasi-crush on Bob even though he is gay but turned off by his competitive streak and shutting out all the girls and Bernie who I loved.

Damn You Cadbury! ( And Lindor and Laura Secord… ) argh. I was doing so well today until I went to go out the door and grab a protein bar for when I would get hungry later. and discovered my husband had eaten the last 5 !!!!!

In a hurry took off and in a stupid hungry moment bought some discounted Easter chocolate “for the kids” . notice how even now I am blaming DH for eating my last protein bar. I am pretty annoyed but I could have done something to improve my chances of success.

I am in bit of a funk right now. I almost through it all in garbage but that depressed me even more- that i am so out of control. I managed to pull myself together… but feel crummy. I had a BAD weekend food wise. Gained 2 lbs.

I did go to yoga class last night and felt better. Think I have constant headache from medication the Synthroid. All the sugar and crappy food from last couple of days has made me feel really bad. Really. Bad. Physically sick and morally demoralized.
Why do I do this to myself?

I feel like I did a couple of month ago when I was stuck for WEEKS at 289. I have been in the 281-283 zone forever it seems.
My weight loss momentum is slowing down. I wonder if Meridia is still working? I have been taking the Synthroid for a week now.. so maybe that will boost my metabolism and my thyroid has been an issue.

I have been pretty sloppy about dieting last couple of days. maybe subconsciously I think I don;t have to because I have all ready lost so much weight and the thyroid was the problem ( and no its not- just another way I trick my brain…)

At last visit Dr. Wharton mentioned that most people can only keep records for 2 weeks ( he means food diary) He is right I start and stop all the time.

I am going back to basics today- record keeping, drink lots of water, eat frequently and getting rid of danger foods in the house.