I am weighing in consistently at 282 lbs. This is lowest I have weighed in over 8 years. I know most people would be aghast at that weighing- but I am safely out of the 300 zone! I still can’t believe I was 318 lbs a few months ago.
I am anxious to get below that 280 mark- thought I wold do it by this morning but had a weird weekend- we were snowed in ( like every one else) and I have been sloppy again about food. I have been nibbling bits and bites of so-called forbidden foods. The worst habit I have picked up is going into grocery store with bulk bin… getting bits of skor bar and last week one or two pieces of fudge (!!!!)
I guess in my mind I think if it comes in small bag it doesn’t count. I did mention to Dr. Wharton that this compulsion came from a place of sabotage and not one of hunger or wanting comfort.
At my last visit with Dr. Wharton some test results came back and my thyroid was showing some problems- looked like it was over active. I believe number was 9.8 and normal range is 1.5-5.5 We redid test efore I went away and I phoned and discussed second test results- which were still bit high ( I *THINK* 5.8 ) but just over the normal range- so he will re-do again.
Part of me was relieved that maybe my issue was medical but now I am happy that I don’t have a chronic medical condition.
I keep promising pics- but this I mean it- I will!!!!
Posted by Linda J. - Weight Loss Using Diet, Exercise and Meridia as Canadian Bariatric Clinic, Daily Posts at 12:40 PM EDT
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You need a yoga mat if you are going to do yoga a regular mat or towel won’t work- you need something non-slip. If you are heavy you especially need extra hell keeping you hands and feet in place.
Yoga Mats are typically about $20-30.00
XS Cargo Stores have yoga mats on sale for 9.99
Giant Tiger Stores also have for 9.99- not sure if this is sale or rgulaer item
Loblaws/Fortinos/Zehrs have nice yoga kits- mat + 2 blocks + strap + yoga dvd + eye mask ( not sure what for! ) for 19.99. This is a great deal. I biought for blocks and have extra mat for kids to do with me…
Posted by Linda J. - Weight Loss Using Diet, Exercise and Meridia as Daily Posts at 12:02 PM EST
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I have joined many fitness clubs in my life. I am a fairly confident person and their have been times where I have felt eyes burning on me when I have walked into a weight room or felt people looking over onto my treadmill to see how I am doing, etc or felt self-conscious while working out. Going to the gym is half the battle and I have felt good after wards but I am more conscious of not “fitting in” there than anywhere else.
having Balance- Connecting Your Mind and Body
I have started doing Yoga. I have been doing for several weeks. I can honestly say it has been life changing for me.
I have been doing a type of yoga, Hatha Yoga- the encourages the concept of “Yoga is For Everyone”. It is about accepting and respecting yourself. And understanding that everything has a balance. With strength their is flexibility and with tension is relaxation and there must be a balance.
If there is too much relaxation- you end up out of shape and not in tune with your body. Living in your head is what most fat people do. I think they literally separate their mind from their body . It may be for all kinds of reasons Woman and men you have been physically violated often end up overweight and obese and living “outside of the body” yoga is one way of getting back in sync.
I have done yoga many times- lots of stops and starts- and never once have I felt out of place or like I didn’t belong. The beginner class I was at last night had an eighty-year old BLIND woman coming for the first time.
Many times while I have been trying a pose and listening to the words of the intruder i have felt tears in my eyes- finally feeling connected to myself and like my body was worth caring for and respecting. Loving yourself- your whole self is not something only skinny and fit people do.
Yoga For Beginners
If you are intimidated by the thought of going to a gym try a yoga studio or community center/Y for classes. You need very little to start, A Yoga mat, belt and pillow are pretty much all you need, yoga blocks are also good to have. If you have to buy you can buy everything for under $20.00. You can often get for free in Freecycle groups.
Gyms Are Scary for Fat People
I am 285 pounds and have seen others heavier than me in classes and there is nothing to be worried about. Please give your self this gift of taking care and loving yourself!
Posted by Linda J. - Weight Loss Using Diet, Exercise and Meridia as Daily Posts at 3:12 PM EST
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One thing about being overweight - there is a lot of money to be made off of people who hate themselves. Our culture continuously sets people up for failure by bombarding both children and adults with cheap, easy to make and empty of nutrition and highly profitable food. I don’t just mean Fast Food. Go down any grocery aisle and you will countless combination of white flour, sugar and fat being marketed at you. Little Debbie, Vachon, Kraft, frozen pizza, etc. It is unavoidable. It is fast easy and cheap ( to make AND buy) Fresh fruits, vegetables , etc take more effort and can be more expensive to eat.
Add to that media that streams perfect photoshopped bodies at us all day long and you have a recipe for self loathing.
Over the years I have spent probably thousands of dollars trying to lose weight. I have bought and not used gym memberships for at least 6 different gyms in the last fifteen years- and risked bad credit when I couldn’t keep up with monthly payments that ballooned and I couldn’t get out of. I have spent money on initiation fees to various weigh loss groups like Jenny Craig and Weight Watchers and then weekly fees for meetings mandatory appointments. All the while my waistline expanded as my bank account shrank.
This time around the only money I have spent on dieting was a new scale, a blender and a yoga DVD. I am following diet plan my OHIP covered doctor. I am determined not to sucked into the giant machine again. I won;t look for a miracle that can be bought- but will earn my health and fitness!
How about you? Have you spent money on dieting that you regret?
Posted by Linda J. - Weight Loss Using Diet, Exercise and Meridia as Daily Posts at 9:40 PM EST
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Been I while since I felt good enough to update my photos. I have only lost about 5 lbs since my last update in late November. I am just under 285 and thank make a 33 lbs weight loss since the beginning of September.
I am wearing same outfit and really though I could comfortably wear these jeans by now! I keep saying another 5 lbs and still they are not comfortable. I am really struggling for clothing- nothing fits… I have to roll waistband of my pants to get them to stay up.
My next appointment with Dr. Wharton at the Bariatric Clinic is late January so I hope to be under 280. I will be happy to see that number.
Glitch with camera so only side and back view for now..
Posted by Linda J. - Weight Loss Using Diet, Exercise and Meridia as Daily Posts, Weight loss Pictures at 7:45 PM EST
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I had an awful sore throat the past week. I was DESPERATE and found some relief with some Riccola brand cough drops. It said no sugar added so felt okay having them. I didn’t care so much about calories as my teeth- I can;t stand eating hard candy and the way it makes my teeth feel and the though of all that sugar water sitting there.. yuk. I am a bit OCD about my teeth… Anyway!
I was sucking on these throat lozenges throughout the day and then picked up a bag of no sugar added Werther’s candy for a change of pace. They were pretty good. I must have has about 10 lozenges/candies over the day. My throat was killing me. Later in the day my stomach was cramping and gurgling, etc. it was really weird. I suddenly had memory of when I hate the Russell Stover sugar free caramel chocolate things once- and I went and checked label of the cough drops. YIKES!!! They contained Isomalt ( a sugar substitute) which ” can have a laxative effect” . They are right. More than that was awful cramping.
This was a really bad experience. I will never eat again. Beware! I am not sure if it was the quantity or if I am just sensitive. Heed these warnings however.
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Drink water.
Every one knows that your supposed to drink 6-8 8 oz. glasses of water a day. If you are significantly overweight or obese you need to drink more. Drinking lots of water (and don’t over do it! ) will help flush out all the toxins and crap your body is trying to get rid of while you are losing weight.
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My last visit to the Canadian Bariatric clinic was mid October- and when I was there is it was just for stress test, so i haven’t really talked to anyone for about 6 weeks. i think this is WAY too long. Too much time to go without any support or encouragement.
I got into a real funk over the weekend and saw the scales go all over the place. Was at 284- a record low- Sunday morning and wearing those Lands End size 22 jeans and almost wore them out but thought they wouldn’t be that comfortable on a long drive. The yesterday I put them on and felt like a giant sausage about to BLOW and went on scales and it read a DEPRESSING 291. So was a 7 lb increase in 24 hours?? Not sure how that happened.
So no pictures for right now until I am at 285.
Going to the Canadian Bariactric clinic later this week. Not suyre what they can do for me- I pretty much KNOW what is going on:
- not keeping proper daily food journals ( okay- I have stepped this up last few days
- Not eating first thing in the morning. I was religious about this up until recentely.. I get up and get a tea and sit at PC for a bit and then next thing i know an hour has gone by. I did bring an apple with me last couple of times and being more conscientious of it.
- eating food that I know will set me in a tail spin, I made the kids some Advent Calendars- suing these Hershey kisses and other Candy and I have been grabbing a chocolate kiss here and there the last couple of days- maybe 5 or 6 in last 4 days .. not a big deal but it makes it harder to turn down other foods. I have FORCED myself not to buy those Almond Meringues at Costco that only have 30 calories. I LIE to myself that i will not eat half the box in one day.. So I just do not buy.
- Sloppy with food counts. Like eating 90 grams protein and 30 grams protein. I have REALLY gone off meat and can’t seem to make it up other ways. I normally only eat chicken and no red meat but even chicken hard. I am relying heavily on meal Replacement bars to get protein. I will have to make a point of making protein shakes with fruit in the mornings from now on.
Any words of encouragement from you guys would be great!
Posted by Linda J. - Weight Loss Using Diet, Exercise and Meridia as Canadian Bariatric Clinic, Daily Posts at 12:46 AM EST
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Seem to have hit bit of a wall. I have been 289 FOREVER… it seems. I want to be at 275v by Christmas and will have to really step it up.
I am getting bit sloppy- not journalling my foods, forgetting to eat in AM or putting it off… There was an Almond meringue Incindt last week. They have these Almond Rocher cooke=ies ( more like a toasted merigue) at Coscto for 5.99 and they have 60 calories for 2… great except if you con yourself into eating 20.
Made huge quantitites of apple crisp last week… Noitve pasta portins are getting bigger and having 8 meatballs instead of 6. Stuff like that.
I think journalling is really key, Bit of a slippery slope whe you stop.
I did try a really good new meal replacement bar 9 tho might be a snack bar) I got at Loblaws 2/3.00. They are the Pria Brand and shockingly good. I like as much or more than the Equate Caramel peanut ones.
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On top of everything else that is going on- we are finally settling in after our move and I am re-doing our master bedroom. The woman who lived here before us was a widow- and it shows :( . I am shocked but who can really find great bedroom furniture online They have a HUGE inventory and a nice “grown-up” look. No more IKEA stuff for us!
My current bedroom is VERY country - not shabby chic good kind of country- but more like country kitchen country:-) Think hens and roosters. In part of my new ay of living I am going for a serene spa/bed and breakfast look. Will do walls in a pale celery green with clean white accents . Very simple. Also looking at a green and white quilt and a new headboard for our bed. The bed is king sized so have to get something subdued.
My new weight loss goal is to be BELOW 270 lbs by Christmas. That’s is about 20 lbs to lose in next 6 weeks. Might be tough but my incentive will be the new headboard .If I get down to 270 that will have been 50 lbs since I started Sept 1. 2007 and want to get something really nice!
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