I took the plunge and weighed myself. I actually lost another 2 lbs- which is a miracle based on the month we have had. Nothing but stress. Stress for me usually means coconut cream pies and more. So I am a svelte 308 now. Hardly worth changing the picture in my header :-)

I have been going through this weird phases where I push my own addictions on the family. I some how convince myself that my family needs and wants dessert every day- when in fact it is usually me that ends up eating half- or more of it. I am now in the habit of making graham cracker crust pies. We have made 2 coconut cream, a key lime and one butterscotch banana pie in the last 2 weeks. I foget that I CANNOT bring this stuff in to the house. I don;t know how I delude myself. I am like the smoker who thinks he will never get lung cancer.

I took the eplunge and weighed myself. I actually lost another 2 lbs- which is a miracle based on the month we have had. Nothing but stress. Stress for me usually means coconut cream pies and more. So I am a svelte 308 now. Hardly worht changing the picture in my header :-)

I have been going through this weird phases where I push my own addictions on the family. I some how convince myself that my family needs and wants dessert every day- when in fact it is usually me that ends up eating half- or more of it. I am now in the habit of making graham cracker crust pies. We have made 2 coconut cream, a key lime and one butterscotch banana pie in the last 2 weeks. I foget that I CANNOT bring this stuff in to the house. I don;t know how I delude myself. I am like the smoker who thinks he will never get lung cancer.

It’s a fact- when women dine in a restaurant theat eat 288 calories MORE than if they ate a meal at home. According to this artcle by USA today- one of the best ways to stop yourself from over indulging is to avoid resautrant size portions.
Read the article here: Eat Less - Avoid Restaurants

Yes, You guessed it.. fell off the wagon. Not jumped off the wagon and ate myself into oblivion- but balance in my life is way off kilter. I have not gone to the gym. I have done very little exercise. I have made MOSTLY good food choices. I am feeling bit crummy about myself. My sex life has really petered out since last baby. It could also be weight gain. I was very heavy ( 275) when husband met me but I feel really big now. I am quite tall- 5′ 10″ and weight is pretty evenly distributed- but being heavy and feeling “ugly” is new phenomenon to me- and it has impacted my intimate life- lacking confidence I suppose.

After holiday weekend will go to gym. I do some consulting work at home and I am behind so every free minute I am trying to work.