Summer 2013 Update

Well… has been a while since I have been able to post. I think I have been embarrassed because I am LITERALLY the same weight i was almost 18 months ago- stuck around 260. I went down to my lowest of 235 and then started to creep and creep back up over the year and just cant shake it.
I think I am almost hitting menopause but not using as an excuse…
At pone pint couple of weeks ago I hit a horrible 270 weighing myself on the weekend and was devastated.

So I am going back to basics and REALLY REALLY REALLY trying to cut out certain foods from my diet. I always trick myself into thinking I can have “just a little bit” and then wonder why a month later I am shoving chips and candy down my throat.

My trigger foods are:

MILK I don’t know why.. I love milk and can easily drink a litre a day or more. When I cut this out things seem easier long term.

Cookies cakes pies and squares- ANYTHING sweet and crispy or gooey.. I’m in. There is no limiting or restricting here. It is all or nothing.

Ice Cream. This is a tough one. It is 95+ degrees here and hard to NOT have but I am trying very hard.

I am going to post every day this week and be accountable.
This afternoon I weighed in at 265 and I think I can be down to 260 by the weekend. Short term if I could be under 260 by Monday I will be THRILLED.

Here is how I plan to do it…
1) Guzzle water and more water.
20 No milk as a beverage ( I will have in my tea tho)
When I was at Wharton Clinic he suggested only or drink milk or water and no JUICE. I am going to slash out the milk as it is trigger for me.

2) More veggies.
I eat a fair amount of fruit but I am going to add more fiber type veggies like broccoli and cauliflower.

3) Avoid trigger foods.

4) Increase my MOVEMENT. Always room for improvement here. I am at my desk for what seems like 18 hours a day so going to have to work this in.
Will set up Wii fit tomorrow.

These seem like sensible realistic goals. I did it once…. can do it again!!!!!!!
Realistically if I look at overall picture I lost almost 100 lbs. Then gained about 25 of it back over the last 2 years. This isn’t a DISASTER… Setback at best.
Those of you who have lost and gained can relate I am sure.

Having a Good week- Wii Fit Says I’ve Lost 4 lbs

I have been REALLY trying not to eat sugar. I find eating sugar leads to eating MORE sugar. Actually its not so much sugar that is the issue but sugar and fat.
I have no problem with fruit or jam on toast , etc Its cookies, cakes, pies, chocolate , FUDGE , etc.
I will admit to whipping batch of fudge in moment of madness on Sunday- I had a couple of bits and then threw it out. Pretty sad , eh? Not as sad as eating whole thing.

I have hear other binge eaters or over eaters talk about same problem I have. If there is something in the house I am fixated on- I either have to eat it to “get rid” of it so I won’t eat it ( explain this logic!!! ) OR I just have to throw out. I haven’t had this in a while but have felt those thoughts creep in last few months. I really though I had whipped this problem and issue with over eating and binging.

I have been pretty good about not bringing in problem foods into the house and paying off. The most effective way for me bot to eat them is to now kid myslef into eating problem foods n the first place.
I am a master of tricking myself sometimes.

This is one of the dumbest things I do. I find myself making cookies or treats “for the family” HA! The consume most on my own. I haven’t done this in so long until recently . I was thinking about what a failure I am- but really the failure would be in not recognizing the problem is back .. ignoring it and being out of control again.

I would love to be under 250 by the weekend. I have hovered around that goal since October.
lose 4 lbs gain 6. Lose 4 lbs gain 5. And so on.

Weight is Creeping back up! I hit 260 lbs last night!!!!


Wow. What a horrible example I am being. I really really thought I had my weight problem licked. I weight the most I have weighed in 2 years. I went down to about 235 lbs year and a half ago… weight keeps creeping up and I have been about 255 for 6 months. I CANNOT get this weight off and more seems to be piling on.
Here are some things that I think are the issue:
1. Sugar has become a part of my diet again.
For me, when I eat sugar I want more sugar. Today I was doing really well. Had a Subway sub at mall with my daughter- 12 inch veggie sub with honey mustard dressing and a soda water. Felt very satisfied and tasted pretty good.
We “wandered” into Laura Secord’s ( chocolate store) I am not even a huge chocolate fan so not sure how we ended up there- I think I wanted to show my daughter the chocolate Easter eggs my mom used to buy us.
Then… bought 3 small sample size chocolates… Ate one of them and within seconds I was eying $2.00 bar of Frosted Mint bar. I picked it up and took to cash- then using SOME willpower.. put it back. That was 4 hours ago and only about an hour ago did cravings for sugar/fat go away.
I forget that sugar/fat is not a friend to me- I just cant pout in my body. Small moderate portions don’t seem to work- right now anyway. Fir a while I had no problem managing myh sweet tooth but I have really slid.

2. I have started drinking milk and juice.
About 2 years ago I stopped drinking mil as a beverage. I LOVE milk. I was drinking 4-6 glasses day of 1% milk. Likely 800 calories a day just in milk. So…. I stopped drinking it as a beverage- I used in tea and cooking but not as a “drink” I lost 20 lbs in 2 months.
I am not a big juice drinking but last few months I have found myself drinking orange juice- and not a small 5 oz Juice size glass- a big tumbler.
I am going to really work at drinking just water or soda water. I have string feeling about diet drinks- I think splenda/aspartame makes me feels sick and crave still more sweets/sugar. I don’t drink pop or diet pop at all.

I have some other insights in my backsliding ways- but for this week I am going to really really make effort-to stay away form processed sugar and eliminate milk as beverage from my diet.
This morning I weighed in at 257 lbs. I cannot believe that number. Oh well- I have done it before and I can do it again!!!
NOTE: In my after pic I am 255. So I still look like my pic … but was looking and feeling great at 235!!!
Shooting for 253-255 lb. range by Saturday morning. Will keep you posted!!!!!!

Using Wii Fit and FLY Lady to Lose Weight


Well.. embarrassed to say not much progress. Weight has bounced up and down and according to Wii Fit I am at 248 lbs. Up about 15 pounds from last year. ARGH. I can’t seem to get out of the 240’s.
Winter is not a good time for me- I cant drive at night and tend to work alot on PC ( no activity) and on top of that- all the baking and comfort foods that come with sub-zero weather.

My peak a couple of weeks ago was 255 lbs and I was SICK. Very worried I am or have backslided into old habits. I really thought I had conquered my weight loss demons- but you really do have to be on constant guard not to let yourself revert back to old FAT ways.

I have been doing FLY- lady to help myself get organized and part of doing that is “Loving Movement” every day and I have incorprated Wii Fit
into my daily routine. I have been doing with my teenage daughter- having a partner to keep me on track has help alot. You can pick up for about 75.00 and that includes disc and balance board.
My Wii Fit age is 51- not too bad! I am officially obese and have BMI of about 37.
My ideal weight should be 148. Realistically I would like to lose another 40-50 lbs to feel comfortable.
So far exercised I have been doing on Wii Fit are Yoga, Super Hulu Hoop and “Running” I do have some vague goal of actually running when nice weather hits.

Fly Lady asks you to work 15 of loving movement into your daily routine. So far I can manage this.
One thing about Wii Fit – it is very chatty and I would often like to get it to skip over some parts.

Lost 85 pounds and now struggling to keep it off!! Bad Habits Creeping in…

Been having problems keeping weight off last couple of months. I have been bouncing around and got as low as 232. This morning I was 253 pounds! Seemed like for 2 or 3 years I had no problems controlling my appetite and weight just dropped off.
I have been struggling all year to keep weight to take off and trying not to put on even more pounds.
One big problem- I have a boyfriend you LOVES to bake. The more exotic the better. I/m talking chocolate souffle with exploding caramel centre type stuff. my self control has been pretty good HOWEVER I do find that once I start eating sugar and fats I crave more.
I started about 3 years ago not allowing processed back goods in the house- like poptarts, granola bars, cookies, cakes.. anything. I will bake them or let kids bake anything they want.
My theory is that 1) I can control the ingredients and 2) more important it takes no effort to gran a bag of Presidents Choice chocolate chip cookies and even less effort to eat them.
If I bake myself at least I have to get in car, buy ingredient, prepare. Mostly I have been baking home made muffins, date squares and quasi healthy things.
Enter the baking boyfriend…. who means well. I don’t think he is “sabotaging” me or trying to make me fat. ( and btw boyfriend is HOT ! )
I have really noticed that the more I “allow” myself to eat the more I crave. So Sunday dinner pecan pie turns into Tuesday butter tarts, etc.
The other thing that has been happen that I think is DEADLY to my weight loss efforts is late night eating and snacking.
It has become normal to eat big bowl of cereal at 1 am. The maybe some ice cream. Yikes.
Haagan Dazs has became a staple in the freezer and so easy to consume a tub. 9 Pralines and Cream and Peanut Butter Chocolate- which I think are the highest calorie!! )
I am not a believer of replacing high calorie sweets and treats with lower calorie version. I honestly think that eating processed sugars make you want more and more. As hard as it sounds may have to go cold turkey and just not have the treat for a while. OR limit it to Sunday dinner or weekends. ( See how none became well maybe on Sunday then weekends?? Slippery slope…)
So I am recommitting myself to get back on the weightloss and fitness train and trying to pull it together.
This week my goals will be to NOT have huge snack late at night.
I will accomplish this by eating a decent dinner. I find that if I skimp on dinner setting myself up for disaster later. Can fool myself into thinking I didn’t eat that much during day so okay to eat bag of sour cream and onion chips. And why do I even have in the house? What is wrong with me???

Importance of Drinking Water when you are obese


You really do need to drink more water when you are obese compared to “average” size person.
You have more water in your body and it needs to be replenished. Not only will your body work more efficiently it is good for digestion.
I have often found that I think I am hungry when really I am just thirsty. Would not be uncommon for me to chug 2 cups of cold milk to quench thirst when a glass of water would do the trick.
I am very careful about what I drink. I will only drink water and milk- occasionally juice with soda water.
NEVER diet drinks! I have foudn that Crystal lite, etc make me feel like crap. I also suspect that it may be f’ing up my insulin levels- and my body thinks I am ingesting sugar.
I have no proof- just a hunch- what do you think?
I try and drink AT least 8 glasses of water a day. You can in fact drink too much water so be careful.

Latest Weightloss Pic – Down to 235 lbs- ALMOST 100 lbs Lost!!!

after weight loss picture


Here is my latest weight loss pic- this was actually taken when I was about 245/250 so I am even smaller now.
Its been almost 18 months since my last post- alot has happened! Divorce has been the biggest change- and also the way I feel about myself.
I have found taking care of myself RIGHT now and not waiting til I am thin to buy new clothes or clothes that look good on me has been key.
I also get my hair done and try and wear make up every day.

Wow- Has it really Been a Whole Year Since I Posted?

I cant help but laugh at last post- because it is just over a year and I am THRILLED to be at same weight! Last month I has ballooned up to 297 lbs! I kid you not. I was at 272 lbs in March and put on 25 lbs in six weeks. I had an IUD put in, the Mirena and immediately put on the weight.

It has been a terrible year. My marriage has been up and down and I am in process of a right now ugly split from my husband. Very shaky ground the good news is when we split the weight literally falls off.
I was in car accident and that has left me plagued with heartaches and all kinds other problems. I am also taking a new preventive headache medication- Topamax, which helps prevent migraines and that can also work as weight loss drug.
I have not taken the Meridia for a long time and happy to be off of it.

I have totally fallen off the wagon when it comes to Dr Wharton and feel badly. I have been overwhelmed with the process of my divorce and I am in rehab, therapy and constant appts for me head injury from car accident . last month was diagnosed with a mild brain injury. What an effing year!
If I could just focus on the weight loss it would be great but the brain injury and divorce, etc have taken up all my energy and I am spread so thin. My poor kids picking up the tab on this one I am afraid.

Hit That Milestone- Down to 278 lbs

Long time without posting in this case means a very busy Summer. I have been doing well- I think largely because if the medication for thyroid. I am not sure but I also think I may be getting too high a dose . I had blood tested today and will know soon enough.

I am at the 278 mark- which is great because I will be getting my period any moment so I should be at around 275 by next week.

Last time I almost hit this weight was last month before camping and I out on 5 lbs.. argh, High heat, no exercise and ice cream. I will be careful this week and stay away for ice cream and marshmallows.

Still taking Meridia but not sure it makes much of a difference anymore and starting to worry about my increased heart rate.